mack:okay, I'm going to go shower..
cece:wait, what?
mack:...I'm going to shower?
cece:really?!
cece:you never do that!
mack:I've been using conditioner..
mack:my hair is SO SOFTTTTT :)
cece:only girls use conditioner.. - -"
Mack, if you don’t come see me soon, I’ll really do it :)
I wish creativity just exploded out of me like this.
Not many people will know who this is, but I liked him rather much in middle school. It’s a good thing babe helped me out, HAHA. Although he kept bitching that pushing his eyebrows together was making his face hurt.
A Rocket to the Moon - If Only You Knew
One of my favorite songs ever from one of my favorite bands ever. I deserve a pat on the back for drawing so much recently..
you healed my broken heart.
Attempted self-protrait turned into a black girl with an afro. SIGH.
Webcam date with the best friend, really do need to draw more..
progress.
…and I need to make sure I’m following these.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS 2011
1. start working out again, become beast at swimming and running (get back in shape for triathlon)
Fuck, I really need to do this. Might do the photography, dance, and track club. So I should be okay!
2. blog something, anything, at least every other day.
Finally caught up on all the blog posts I’ve had since coming here. They’re somewhat mundane and voiceless, but at least I have a picture or a drawing to accompany them. Should I make a separate blog for my Japan adventures or just put those suckers here?
3. draw a picture everyday (especially what you wear if it’s something nice)
I should really post those…I’d like to make a 365 for photography and art someday, but like my other resolution says: one project at a time!4. take or edit pictures at least everyday
Been following this pretty well, even if some of the pictures are on my crappy phone cameras. 5. learn Japanese freaking well
I think I can safely say intensive classes and Japanese friends have seriously helped me better my communication skills although grammar still gives me trouble.
6. work on learning Chinese fluently
7. visit grandparents in Taipei, Taiwan
8. knit new patterns for scarves to give to friends
9. get an internship or lab work study10. be nicer to dede11. stop biting my nails
12. start yelping!
13. at least 5 things off my bucket list: skydive, bungee, tattoo, parasail, hand glide, live in ADPi14. save at least $5,000 (bank account should be $20000+)
you can never have too much money, why not up the goal!? I should make it something harder like, $40,000 by the end of this year. I wish I could have a job here..sigh.
15. raise gpa to 3.5+
16. declare art double major
17. finish projects before starting others, like art and sewing
18. listen to better music, alternative rock ftw
thank god Mack is not a mainstream fan.
19. learn to sew and tailor20. dress better with the clothes I already have (and only buy clothes that will be cute for a lifetime)
I did buy a pair of overalls, but I love those things. I also bought a mini-check navy button up from a store called earth (its tagline, sustainability). I bought loads of underwear and lingerie. But other than that, most of my money is spent on food and fun. I think I’m doing okay!
…and now back to studying 漢字。あ、もう！つまなすぎ。。。 :(
camellia, I miss you.
mofo.
cam:kei's getting his mothafuckin perm this saturday
me:LOLOLOL
cam:so i guess i can get my haircut there
cam:while waiting for his pampered ass to get the fuck out
cam:-.-
me:sxjilajceldfjefsa
me:"mothafuckin perm"
me:LOLOLOLOL
A thousand cranes can make your wish come true.
Well, then. I wish I could go back in time. I wish I made the decision to be with you forever. I wish we never got separated. I can’t stand loneliness anymore. I wish I told you sooner, that I loved you and would give anything to make sure you never had to let go. Never had to say goodbye.
But life isn’t that easy, is it?
childhood.
Makes me wish Pokemon really did exist
that.was.amazing.
choices, choices.
art club?
photography club?
modern dance club?
judo club?
archery club?
track club?
A list of things of old and new. Also things I do in all the spare time I have here. So what to choose? Things I’ve never tried before or things I know I will excel at? Or..things that will help me in the future? It’s weird how hobbies have a future now, I don’t remember them having a future before. But that was in the olden days of high school. Something you love vs. something that will help the future you that you don’t even know.
Why is it always about our lives twenty years from now? What about now.
Throwing away two to three years of the past seems like a lot.
But compare it to sacrificing the rest of your lifetime, it doesn’t seem so much anymore. The future is a lot more important than your sweet memories of the past. People change, things change, so do relationships.
So watch that scrapbook burn, wipe away those tears, and move on with your life - it doesn’t stop because your heart was ripped apart by old photographs.
the right way.
the right way isn’t always the opposite of left.
I miss my dog, she made things a lot simpler.
If you didn’t run away and sign off, I would have been able to say this to your face. Too bad you’re too much of a coward to face your own consequences. As much as you harp about you understanding me and all my actions, you obviously don’t. It’s fine, misunderstanding each other is humanity’s biggest flaw. It’s the reason for all our conflicts, wars, and destructive actions. But to claim you know me better than myself is just a little too far.
Because you don’t. If you did, you wouldn’t be so fucking retarded about my feelings and how your actions screw them all up.
So don’t throw a fit. Don’t throw a tantrum and then claim you know what I am going to say. Because you don’t. And it’s taking me a shit long time to decide because I’m obviously thinking about your feelings too. So, neanderthal, why don’t you evolve a bit and not base everything off what I’ve said before? If we treated each other based on our pasts, you’d be fucked in the ass a hundred times over.
Shut up and think, for once.
happy two years, twenty four months.
It doesn’t feel like its been that long, but I guess because half of it I want to forget, the other half I almost forget to remember. Too bad our anniversaries will be like this for a while, but at least technology has been very handy in trying to keep this thing going. Not much going on today, just sent a package of presents out. Shipping was damned expensive, but you can always replace money. You can’t replace memories.
Feels like just another day, but I guess it means something special.
Happy anniversary.
everyone seems to emo lately, me included.
since when was life so difficult?
fault.
who’s fault is it when your own life is miserable?
that’s right.
absolutely no one, but yourself.